Oct 8th 2021
your calling me manic again
your calling me a liar again
your calling me a selfish <bitch> again
i thnk your misunderstanding me.
my manic depression isnt right
for everybody darling
and youve been mining it for 20 years.
digging me up in your garden
digging me up i my dirt
im sure you will find gold
but do we have enough wasted time for that?
im so sick of you my darling.
the rules i do not follow.
the words lying unspoken at my feet.
your a son of a bitch.
you say you just want to help me.
how is all this stress from fighting helpful?
you say you just wanted to keep me safe.
if i go manic i might runaway
from home again.
get my car impounded.
get mugged or raped.
wind up robbed in a womens shelter.
or homeless on the streetss.
you say i dont take it seriously.
but i do.
and its my life.
And if i want another car im going to get one.
And if i want a new kitten im going to get oe too.
And if i want a new part time job
im going to start applying today.
because this fighting were doing?
i cant keep doing this.
i might not stay.
just too terrified to say