Broken- by Emily H. Sturgill
Bipolar disorder broke my brain in two poles.
With my medications I walk a tightrope between these poles
depression and mania…..I try daily to slip into the inbetweenness of these two things.
medicine helps but it does not cure. It only helps to contain a balance of semi-stability.
So yes I”ve got a broken brain.
Also I’ve got a broken Uterus. I have Endometriosis Stage 4. A fancy way of brokeness…
I hurt a lot of the time. It’s the worst whenever I am bleeding. Crumpled into layers of pain cramping aching stabbing screaming agony of pain. I’m hurting today in fact. Despite my period not due for two more days my broken uterus spits brownish blood and I know that means to hell with the calendars my period’s starting early. Up until 2015 I was taking opiods for the pain. Then I went through the process of applying for a medical marijuana card. I got off opiods. Now instead of pain daily from my endometriosis I’ve only got pain during my periods and during ovulation…..
A broken Uterus. A history of Infertility. Two pregnancies=Two miscarriages.
It’s a fancy form of brokeness. It’s a double whammy. A broken brain. A broken Uterus.
But deep down inside beneath all of the broken things is my poetry is my stories is my spirit and my soul-even beneath all of that is my heart which is strong unflinching warm and consistently unbroken. It beats on and on-unbroken. And beneath this broken brain and broken uterus is an unbroken girl grasping at straws and pulling like weeds from the ground fistfulls of words which fall to my feet into puddles of poetry.
In Jan 2019 I have two of my kindle ebooks on Kindle Countdown Sales. The first is my collection of artworks called “Art before Words.” The normal kindle price is $9.99 but starting tomorrow Jan 11,2019 at 8:00AM PST it will just be 99 cents. Between Jan 12-16th the price will increase by $1.00 per day until it hits $4.99.It will stay $4.99 until Jan 18th 12:00 AM PST. My second kindle e-book on sale is a book I was fortunate enough to edit. It’s a wonderful anthology of poetry by various poets I met through my blog. It’s called “Dredging up Demeter: An Autumn Anthology of poetry.” Edited by Emily H. Sturgill. It’s normally priced at $3.33 but under this sale from Jan 11,2019 at 8:00AM PST it will be available for only 99 cents. On Jan 14th the price will increase to $1.99 and will stay that price until Jan 18th 2019.
Freebies in Jan 2019.
I have six ebooks that I am offering free promotions for. The first one is called,”A mandala that happened on the way to a car crash & other stories.” This will be free starting today Jan 10,2019 at 10:00AM PST until Monday Jan 14th at 11:59 PM PST. This is a really exciting book for me to write. Primarily I do write mostly poetry but this book is my first attempt at short stories and fiction. I would love any feedback my readers can give me if they choose to download this book and read it. You can leave feedback on my Author’s page at http://www.amazon.com/Emily-Sturgill/e/B00B1GC5LY.
The second freebie is my very first ebook, “Sex in the kitchen sink: poetry and art.”by Emily H. Sturgill. It will be free starting tomorrow Jan 11th 2019 12:00AM-Jan 15th 2019 11:59PM PST. The third free book is a collection of poetry called “Red Bones.”by Emily H. Sturgill. It will be free starting Monday Jan 21, 2019 12:00AM PST-Jan 25, 2019 11:59 PM.
The fourth e-book that will be available for free downloads is very special to me. It is my very first Anthology of Poetry. It was started as a project on this blog asking for poets to submit their work. Normally it only costs 99 cents but you can get it free from Jan 21st 2019 at 12:00AM PST-Jan 25th at 11:59 PM. All of my books are available by visiting Amazon.com at this link: http://www.amazon.com/Emily-Sturgill/e/B00B1GC5LY. This wonderful Anthology is called,”Help Wanted: poets please apply.” Edited by Emily H. Sturgill.
The last two freebies are older ebooks on the kindle by me. They are both poetry collections. But they both deal with aspects of my bipolar disorder. My fifth free ebook is called “On the brink letters to the madness+poems & pictures,” and my sixth free ebook is it’s sequel “On the brink letters to the madness+poems & pictures Vol 2.” both are free starting Jan 28th 2019 at 12:00AM PST-Jan 30th 2019 at 11:59PM PST.
All of my poetry and artist chapbooks can be found at Amazon.com.
Please follow this link if your interested: http://www.amazon.com/Emily-Sturgill/e/B00B1GC5LY.