Not enough-
Dec 26th, 2014
Friday Afternoon 2:49 EST
Not enough
Never enough
Not enough
sleep.
Not enough,
to eat.
Not enough,
to touch the sky & kidnap the Sun.
Not enough, to learn how to fly,
just enough to become
untied
undone.
Not enough to reach outwards and find it.
Not enough to reach out, and grab the happy
right off someone else’s face,
because my happy
its become erased
misplaced
lost confusion.
It’s just not enough,
to fix up this place.
It’s not enough to straighten
this room, to clean between the cracks, to sweep
a broom across this dusty room
deep inside my minds eye.
Not enough,
to touch the sky & kidnap the Sun.
Not enough, to learn how to fly,
just enough to become
untied
undone.
It’s not enough to
try to run, to sprint, to finish
the race.
I’m fresh out of lungs
the air is too sharp, cold and dry-
It’s not enough,
to just sit here
waiting for you
to get home.
It’s not enough, to be a failure as a housewife,
to be a successful lunatic
with a Masters Degree
and no job prospects.
It’s not enough
to be a crazy person,
living on SSDI, it’s not enough, to always
live in someone else’s shadow
it’s not enough
to be the ghost
you can come home
and answer too.
Don’t you understand?
My wings may have melted, because I flew
too closely to the Sun
but I have dreams too.
I do not long to be
someone else’s
no one.