Birthday

Birthday 9/16/19

It’s your birthday
tomorrow
and I want
to make you smile.

Anything I can do
that makes you
happy even just for
a while.

Today 9/17/19

Today is your 46th
birthday
Just another year older
yet somehow wiser.
I’ve gotten you
some nic-nacks
small gifts and things.
But I cannot find
the right words
to express
that You are the one,
I will always love best.

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A connection

A connection- 9/16/19

To love someone
relentlessly
with a wild heart
takes much courage.

To love someone
recklessly,
with honesty
and grace
this is devotion.

To love someone
as the days
turn to months,
then to years
this is loyalty.

But to have that Love
love you back
equally through sorrow
and through joy

This is a blessing,
a treasure
something so powerful,
This is connection.

Saying goodbyes…

Saying goodbyes….. 9/7/19

Everytime I see you
it feels like the last
goodbye.

I’m not sure how much
time is left
time is such a thief

and you are very ill.

It is very good to see you
but I wish that time
stood still.

I lost others sometimes faster
sometimes slower
time is such a thief
time is a racehorse
it passes by with so much
speed.

As I try to make sense
of this awful cancerous
ending I dream of new beginnings
yet in my heart I know

Everytime I see you,
it feels like the last
goodbye.

Video: Poetry readings from Painfully Sane.

Here is a video of me reading 3 of my poems in Painfully Sane.

Last day! Free ebook on Kindle.

7/31/19

This is the last day of my Free Promotion on my latest poetry and artist chapbook, “Painfully Sane.” by Emily Sturgill, 2019.
You can download it using this link here: https://www.amazon.com/s?k=painfully+sane&i=digital-text&ref=nb_sb_noss_1

Or also by going to http://www.amazon.com and typing Painfully Sane in the search box.
For reasons I don’t really understand yet this newest book is not listed on my Authors page.But if you do want to leave a review just post it on the page where you find “Painfully Sane.” I really appreciate any feedback and look forward to hearing from anyone.

About this book here is a description:

This is a slim Poetry and Artist chapbook.It is roughly 60 pages long. It is divided into six different themes, Poetry and Art, Endometriosis, Bipolar Disorder/ Manic-Depression, Nature and Weather,Grief and Loss and Love. The featured artworks are paintings, drawings and photography. The author has a BFA in painting and a Masters of Education in Art Ed and art therapy. She runs her own blog on wordpress.com called Sex in the kitchen Sink. Emily lives in Michigan with her husband, two dogs, two cats and Mother in Law.

I don’t know what.

I don’t know what. 7/28/19

I don’t know what

I’m trying to say

is it a confession

or a poem

or an unraveling of words?

I just don’t know.

I write as long

as my heart speaks

I write to empty

this foolish mind.

I write to fill a void

in this bathtub of my soul

so much just water

with nothing left to fill.

Poetry is my shadow

She follows me around

whispers her sweetest nothings,

then she slams me to the ground.

I don’t know why.

I don’t know if I am confessing

to the everything I’ve done

or simply writing poetry

the lost songs

never song.

Regrets

Regrets –July 28 2019

There are times, people and places

I remember the bits and pieces

When I was dealing with

My manias which felt like

Fitfalls of explosion and I literally

Lost all control of the blast.

So many people were driven away

By my madness but a few did stay.

I regret those I offended or hurt by

All the things I did and say.

It’s hard to separate the explosions of emotions from the logically medically induced stability I try to suggest is normalcy. It maybe coming out of prescription therapy but it’s much more the real me then when I don’t have my bipolar medication or worse yet when the medicine stops working.

I try so hard to be stable and real and trustworthy. I regret the confusion my condition causes. I regret the pieces and bits and places and people I have lost. But I’m grateful for those who stayed and waited for me to make sense again. Sometimes you don’t know what’s lost until it’s gone.

Living with mental illness is hard.

I’ve been trying to learn to accept my regrets and start over again.

Free Kindle Promotion

Starting tomorrow Saturday July 27 2019 my newest Artist and Poetry chapbook will be available as a Free download. This free promotion is only available from July 27- Weds July 31 2019.

Here is a link to download this ebook: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07V3PF3NY
As always I welcome feedback and reviews. You can leave feedback on my Amazon.com’s Author page. http://www.amazon.com/Emily-Sturgill/e/B00B1GC5LY
As well as check out some of my other books.

“Painfully Sane: Poetry and Artwork.” by Emily Sturgill, 2019 is my 23rd book.
You can also follow my work on my blog. http://www.sexinthekitchensink.wordpress.com.

I hope some of you decide to download this new book and leave your thoughts on it. I look forward to your feedback. Thank you, Emily Sturgill.

You don’t have to like me.

You don’t have to like me
to read my poetry.
You don’t need to share my views
or even understand or agree.
All you need to do
is listen to my words
my poetry
the rhythm the beats
listen to the images
the pictures they paint
listen to the words
and follow the meaning
but I am just me
myself
and you don’t have to like me
to read my poetry.

Caged

Caged- 7/20/19
Children in a Cage,
where is the Rage?
I thought we were the
Home of the Brave?

Doesn’t our statue
of Liberty welcome
all immigrants
regardless of their
ancestry?

What’s really happening
at our borders?
Why are legal asylum seekers
being turned away?

It’s 2019 America, but
we are holding hostages.
How can we be the home of
the Free and the Brave
while children are suffering,
torn from families
and held in a Cage?