Tears fill my eyes, leaking out at the corners…
is the love i thought i knew,
the love i thought i had with you.
Did you ever really love me?
Are you even capable of that?
now, that i have escaped both your grasp,
and your liars heart…
i can listen to my inner voice inside
my head, warning me that you
are a very dangerous man indeed.
warning me to not fall for the pity-trap.
to close my ears while you say,please.please.please.
Listen, i will change.
and I guess in all this time;
to your credit, you did change
except its for the worst.
How did i fall for this?
Was i really so desperate,
for anybody to love me-that
i settled for you???
Somebody who loves to love,
and somebody who hates that which
he loves, as a vicious abusive-controlling
it hurts me deeply-
to realize now after 13 years,
i never knew the real you.
it was all stage lightening and fake drama.
you were always an actor,
playing a part,
yet also a wolf lunging for my heart.
You could paint a nice story
with words alone. My family adored you.
But they were without all the facts.
And i was too scared to tell them on you.
the emotional, mental abuse was more often
then the physical stuff.
Despite my Daddy telling me, “Do not ever let a man put his arms on you in anger.”
“Don’t ever let a man hit you.”
Despite these facts-i choose only to see your halo.
The one i gave to you.
If only i would have stared harder-
i would have seen it as broken, rusty