Cautiously trying to find
a way into the groove-
to slip into the perfect spot/
where I am able to create/
a new reality/for myself/and my family.
Getting into the groove,
Applying for more jobs/seeking employment/
refusing to throw the towel in./I’ve got some energy/
it makes my mind spin.
Part of what makes me ME,
is an illness which defines me/my bipolar disorder/
yet it does have an upside/at times I can become/
highly focused/motivated/able to get things done.
There is usually a price to pay/a relapse/
or a struggle/to maintain my moods/
I am trying my hardest to just/
get into the groove.
To find some stability/to cover myself/
up in artwork & poetry.
I want to be/
I want to contribute to society/
to become part of mental health advocacy.
I want to be more than a nameless face/
in a sea of anonymity.
It’s hard to set reasonable goals/when your Ego flexes/
from zero-to-one hundred/ on any given day.
All I can say,
is I want to get in to
my groove Today.