Not just one,
but 2 ghosts made out
of human vice.
I’ve been haunted,
by the second one for over a decade.
It’s the memory which lingers,
like a stain of lipstick
round the coffee cup chipped china.
The bluest eyes-or stormy sea-form green?
I cannot remember too vividly.
Probably, because your memory scorns me.
You were something other-worldly.
You were like a blast from my past,
that i do not recall having.
You were an enigma wrapped up in secrecy,
novel and random, with your apple slices,
You never meant,
to mark such a mark on me.
And I think you were quite accustomed,
to various woman falling
all over themselves
to fall in love with you
but no not me.
i looked into those soulful eyes,
and got a little lost in the stormy sea.
I did not sway, waiver or pray.
I did not fall all over myself-falling into
love or lust over you.
I did something far worse to you…
I ran, not even walked, I ran away RAN away-
from you from everything,
I just took off-
and you knew where-
I was headed for more looney bins, more psych units,
more doctors to cure me,
of all my pagan delusions,
and flights of fancy.
You knew the mistake i was in.
You knew the mess I had been.
You lived it before your own self.
You tried to warn, then beg, then plead,
I refused to listen, i think i just hung up on you.
Years later, I found you again-must have been 5 yrs later.
We met by accident in downtown Detroit.
You flirted, you blink your lovely eyelashes at me.
I never took for a moment the possibility
that you were being serious with me.
You were concerned, that I was wondering around homeless.
You tried to describe where you lived, but i was way too far out.
I should have went home with you.
But I did the easy thing, i ran away again.
I never did understand the strange connection we had.
I never will understand
why the memory of you,
somebody i barely,
still haunts me, to this day.
you were the original magick man.
even though you were the second one I ever met…
there was some way we
that made absolutely no sense to me.
If I did believe in things like
karma, love at first sight, soul mates
any of that-it would make me miss you even more.
but if you popped back into my life,
i would probably run fast
like my ass was on fire.
I did marry for love,
and I do love him, and we are very happy.
But somehow, i have never
completely gotten over you,
you left a thumbprint on my
heart-which later turned
a memory into